Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Website I Found Entirely Too Late

I definitely bookmarked this last week but I never got around to reading anything on it.

SIGH......

TwoOfUs.org

For the record, I'm an inconsiderate jackass with bad time management and messed up priorities.

-RTJ

Blog Status

Per the insight of my good buddy Snipes McGee, I will try to be as meaningful as I can with these blogs. While I'm not here to give advice or try to convert anyone to the Tao of Ren, I do feel that I might have a certain brand of insight that I am eager to share (with anyone willing to read).

As Snipes so eloquently put it, "Daily blogs just become SuperTwitter after a while... And people's ideas are, most times, more interesting than people's lives."

Well spoken, sir.

As of earlier this summer I stopped playing Final Fantasy XI. Matter of fact, once FFXIV was announced, I finally didn't feel bad about giving up. I was going to anyway, but the announcement of FFXIV just helped further my cause.

As it was, I was just doing Dynamis and Sky, and I didn't really care about gear from either. I was broke, no good at working the market and bored with the pacing of the game. Also, I was at the very peak of what I could be as a player without gear, and being as how I'm allergic to end-game and too lazy to solo, it didn't leave many options.

So while I will fondly remember my time as a Tarutaru Red Mage and a Bulletproof Paladin, I won't be revisiting any Vana'diel adventure soon. Besides, there are a ton more FFXI blogs out there, written by people who have accomplished a ton more, so Google them shits, son.

I most likely will go back to writing stories, and I'll try to keep them in a separate section as soon as I figure out how to finagle a bagel Blogger like that.

-RTJ

Seasons of Life

I haven't had an easy year.

My accident, the decline of my relationship, my suspension from school, the non-existence of funds, my abysmal grades, my inability to commit to pretty much anything and the laughable trust that my word seems to have.

There have been many times when I really didn't feel like getting out of the bed. I extend my condolences to any of the people out there who truly suffer from depression, because this small iota of what I'm experiencing is almost unbearable.

I am broke, I haven't been able to afford a haircut or groceries, I don't have a job, I haven't been to the gym, I'm out of shape..

I feel like such a scrub. Most days I don't even want to get out of the bed.

I deleted my Twitter account over the weekend.

I doubt anyone is going to care, because I know I sure as hell don't.

I had a girlfriend. We had our problems, but she's a great person. The reason our relationship declined is pretty much 100% my fault because she truly tried to go above and beyond while I didn't step up to the plate.

I'm an inconsiderate jackass and I'm incapable of maintaining a prolonged relationship.

I see no point in praying about this, or asking for some sort of strength or wisdom, or believing that this small speedbump in my life is a part of a grander scheme. Ya see, I'm not religious.

Sure, I have a feeling that there might be some sort of higher power, but I firmly believe that whoever that believer is, they don't care about the personal prayers of someone who is a small part of a population of 6 billion in a Universe that stretches and expands faster than we can calculate.

Therefore, it's truly ironic that the best bit of insight I have comes from a sermon I attended when I was home some time ago.

On this fair planet, we experience four main seasons, and these seasons are synonymous with the harmonies and discords that occur in our life. While we may enjoy the new developments and opportunities that the Spring brings in addition to the prosperity and liveliness of the Summer, we try to avoid the fall, so to speak, of Autumn.

Everyone would like to appreciate things when times are good, and scramble to avoid the bad, but as is the nature with these cycles, there are two parts. What is important to realize is that the Autumn and Winter periods in our lives are not necessarily bad.

When things are crumbling apart, and the chips are stacked against us, it is extremely overwhelming. This part, however, is important, because it is the Autumn that prepares us for the rest that comes in the Winter.

This resting period is a time of reflection and a time of planning. It is during the Winter where we can sit back and take inventory of our lives, and figure out what we need in order to be successful.

Is is the rest of the Winter that prepares us to jump into Spring, revitalized with energy, motivation and the drive to succeed.

At least, that's how I understand the sermon. Paster Bernard tied that into how it's God's work and such, but I listened to it as it pertains to me, such is the nature of sermons.

Then he also asked if anybody didn't have a relationship with Jesus Christ and I respectfully stayed in my seat.

I have a lot of things I need to work on. I lost a good woman, my grades suck, and I'm unemployed and feeling like a scrub. I still have my friends, and most importantly, my health, so I can't be too down on myself.

Things suck, yeah, but they're not hopeless. Perhaps in my fall from Facebook and in the Twilight of my Twitter account, I will be able to reconnect with people and become a better person in the process.

Even if not, I'll try my best.

-RTJ

Update [10/29]:

Me and her are working things out. She's coming to visit me on the 31st and will be staying with me for about a week or so.

Reflection is the best therapy?

I am gracious for her forgiveness.

Monday, October 26, 2009

Something better than nothing?

Even if it's complete and utter bullshit, I'm going to try and blog daily. There are a number of things that interest me, but I never really write about them unless it overflows.

Taking a cue from my home girl Erin, I'm going to cut back on the Social Networking and increase my creative flow.

I used to be a funny guy. I was a lot more funnier when I wrote more.

Anyone else see the correlation?

Friday, October 2, 2009

Google Wave

I have a few more invites. Leave a comment here with your email address so you can get an invitation.

Regards!

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

The 48 Laws of Power and how our President uses them

If you haven't read Robert Greene's "48 Laws of Power", you are missing out on a pivotal book involving leadership and successfully winning battles. I place this book on my mantle, along with Sun Tzu's "The Art of War" and Miyamoto Musashi's "Gorin No Sho".

The beauty of it all is that on the campaign trail, I noticed that Obama employed MANY of these Laws. The interesting thing of many leaders of today is that they naturally exhibit the traits and tactics highlighted throughout this book.

"48 Laws of Power" is a great read, and it's very indescribable. It's free to download (I gotta find the link) and I currently own the 25mb PDF. The Google Doc's limiit for PDFs is 10mb, so I'll see if I can host it somewhere else.

Law 9
Win through your Actions, Never through Argument
Any momentary triumph you think gained through argument is really a Pyrrhic victory: The resentment and ill will you stir up is stronger and lasts longer than any momentary change of opinion. It is much more powerful to get others to agree with you through your actions, without saying a word. Demonstrate, do not explicate.

Law 28
Enter Action with Boldness
If you are unsure of a course of action, do not attempt it. Your doubts and hesitations will infect your execution. Timidity is dangerous: Better to enter with boldness. Any mistakes you commit through audacity are easily corrected with more audacity. Everyone admires the bold; no one honors the timid.

Law 31
Control the Options: Get Others to Play with the Cards you Deal
The best deceptions are the ones that seem to give the other person a choice: Your victims feel they are in control, but are actually your puppets. Give people options that come out in your favor whichever one they choose. Force them to make choices between the lesser of two evils, both of which serve your purpose. Put them on the horns of a dilemma: They are gored wherever they turn.

Law 35
Master the Art of Timing
Never seem to be in a hurry – hurrying betrays a lack of control over yourself, and over time. Always seem patient, as if you know that everything will come to you eventually. Become a detective of the right moment; sniff out the spirit of the times, the trends that will carry you to power. Learn to stand back when the time is not yet ripe, and to strike fiercely when it has reached fruition.

Law 45
Preach the Need for Change, but Never Reform too much at Once
Everyone understands the need for change in the abstract, but on the day-to-day level people are creatures of habit. Too much innovation is traumatic, and will lead to revolt. If you are new to a position of power, or an outsider trying to build a power base, make a show of respecting the old way of doing things. If change is necessary, make it feel like a gentle improvement on the past.

Monday, August 31, 2009

Gaming Consoles and the Heat Plague

Read this article on Eurogamer, and it pretty much explains that simply doing what your console was designed to do - play games - is destructive. This is due to the technology being very intensive and prone to overheating. XB360 owners no doubt already know the deal, but this was a very interesting read.

Found in the comment section a link to this contraption, and it's pretty much a replacement case for the XB360 with a stronger fan and much more ventilation. So, essentially, it's better for your components and outputs less noise than the XB360 does. For anyone interested, they have pre-built units located here.

I would be interested in seeing if they have any for the PS3, but just for the sake of research. The QuietPC company, at the moment, does not. Hopefully, with the coming of the PS3 Slim and the fact that it cuts the power and heat consumption of the PS3 Fat in half, we are on the road to not needing this. But from looking at screens of the PS3 Slim, I am intensely concerned about ventilation.

Ciao!